The Lover After Me
Disclaimer:  No, I do NOT own Gundam Wing, or
this song.  Bandai, Sunrise, and Sotsu Agency 
copyrighted GW, and "The Lover After Me" belongs
to my favorite non-J-pop group, Savage Garden.
^.^  Please don't flame me too much, this *is*
the first thing I've ever written that was NOT
humorous...and I think I'm *really* terrible when
it comes to any kind of 'love' stuff.  Well, onto
the story!  Hehe... :) <blah blah blah> = Lyrics,
ok? :)
Note: Yeah, here...Duo and Heero are/were gay, so
live with it, ok?
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A.C. 202

'The big day,' Duo thought as he opened another bottle
of Bacardi Rum.  'The day the one I love marries the
Queen of the World.'  The memory of that fateful day
Heero told him it was over was still fresh in his 
memory, and it still hurt like hell...

<Here I go again, I promised myself I wouldn't think 
of you today...>

Duo drank some more of the rum, and tried hard to 
forget about Heero.  'He's getting married, and he 
told you already that he doesn't have any feelings
for you anymore.'  But, somewhere in Shinigami's
subconscience, he couldn't accept that, and his 
thoughts continued to drift back to Heero, and the day
the world as Duo knew it ended.

<It's been seven months and counting,
You've moved on,
I still feel exactly the same...>

***Flashback, 7 months Earlier***

"What do you mean, you don't love me anymore?" Duo
asked, hoping that Heero could NOT be serious about
what he just said.  The 'Perfect Soldier' stared at
the braided American, his eyes showing a little bit
of remorse for having, in a way, playing with Duo's
emotions.

"I don't love you, Duo...I never have," he replied in a
slightly shaky voice, something uncharacteristic for 
Heero.

"Then...who?"  Duo asked, even though he already knew 
the answer.  'Please, please, don't let it be...'

"Relena," was Heero's reply as he walked out the door
of the apartment the former Gundam pilots shared.  Duo
fell to his knees, tears already falling from his bluish-
purple eyes.

***Seven Months Later...***

"Heero-chan...I still love you," whispered Duo as the 
TV began showing Heero and Relena's wedding live.

<It's just that everywhere I go all the buildings know
your name
Like photographs and memories of love
Steel and granite reminders
The city calls your name and I can't move on...>

***Walking around on L2***

Duo couldn't watch the wedding, it was too heartbreaking.
He walked around, passing by places he and Heero had went
to when they were together.  Each place or building 
brought back happy memories; memories that made Duo want
to die from sadness.  One of the parks he walked into 
made him remember their 'anniversary'...

***Flashback***

"Heero-chan, I didn't think you would have remembered
today," Duo said as Heero handed him a present.  The
other boy smirked at his lover.

"Why would I forget something like this?  Even though
I don't show it much, Duo, I love you," Heero replied
as he kissed the shocked American while he tried to
open his present.

***Present***

"Funny, I still have that gift too, Heero," Duo said as
held the gold ring in his hands.  It had been the only 
visible sign of their relationship.  Heero had given 
his ring to Relena to use as one of their wedding bands.  
At the thought of *that*, Duo became disgusted and nearly
threw his ring into the fountain.

<Ever since you've been gone
The lights go out the same
The only difference is
You call another name
To your love
To your lover now
To your love
The Lover after me...>

"Why *HER*, Heero?"  Duo asked no one in particular
as tears formed yet again.  "What made her so special?
What about what WE had?"

<Am I all alone in the universe?
There's no love on these streets
I have given mine away to a world that didn't want it
anyway...>

Duo headed back to the apartment.  By now, the broadcast
of the Yuy/Peacecraft wedding was over, and he was sure 
he could get *some* sleep.  'There is no such thing as 
love,' thought Duo as he swiped his security card to
open the gates to the apartment complex.  'I guess this is
how Hilde felt when I told her about me and Heero.'

<So this is my new freedom
It's funny
I don't remember being chained...>

'Does Heero really think he's done something good for me
by marrying Relena?  Can't he understand how miserable I 
am without him?'  Duo wondered as he rode the elevator to
get to the floor of his apartment.  'Instead of making me
happy, he's made me want to kill myself...'

<But nothing seems to make sense anymore
Without you, I'm always twenty minutes late...>

"This 'peaceful' life, without you, Heero, it's not worth
it," Duo muttered to himself after he finished the bottle
of rum.  He took out a small packet with white powder inside
of it.  It was illegal to have crack on Earth, but the law 
wasn't as strickly enforced out on the colonies.  "This 
should help me forget about you," Shinigami whispered as
he began snorting the powder.  

<Ever since you've been gone
The lights go out the same...>

***Flashback***

Duo looks out the window in his room.  "It's not the same
around here anymore, Heero," he said as he turned out the lights
and climbed into the bed, where it seemed too big and empty.

<The only difference is
you call another name
To your love
To your lover now
To your love
The Lover After me...>

***Present Day***

"Gee, I wonder what you're doing right now, Heero," Duo
said sarcastically.  "That's right!  You're busy banging
Miss 'Queen of The World' and screaming her name..."

<And time goes by so slowly
The nights are cold and lonely
I shouldn't be holding on
But I'm still holding on for you...>

***Four months earlier***

"Only three months have passed since you left me,
Heero," Duo said as he wrote it in his journal.  "It's 
hard to believe it's only been *that* long."  To him,
it seemed like an eternity had passed.  "Please change
your mind about the wedding, Heero-chan.  I know you
still love me..."

<Here I go again
I promised myself I wouldn't think of you today
But I'm standing at your doorway
I'm calling out your name because I can't move on..>

***Present Day***

The next morning, Duo woke up, and went into the now
empty room of the apartment.  It had been where Heero 
was during the day, busy typing away at his laptop, most
likely trying to hack into a computer or something.  

"Heero, it still feels like you're here, with me," Duo 
said with a sigh.  'Why can't I just accept it?  He just
got married yesterday, and it's been seven months since 
I've even *seen* him, and I don't mean in pictures.' 
Suddenly, there was a knock on the door.  Duo left the
hallway to go answer it and saw Hilde.

"Duo..." Hilde said, but was cutoff by Duo's hug.  "I 
came to check on you.  Are you ok?"

"No," replied Duo.

"Want to talk about it?"  Hilde asked Duo.  Duo nodded, 
and both of them sat down on the couch.  Duo told Hilde
everything that happened over the past seven months.  

When he was finished, he said, "I just can't move on,
Hilde.  How did you do it when we broke up?"

"I didn't, that's why I came over here, to make sure 
you were ok," she replied, tears starting to build in 
her eyes.  "Go ahead and cry, Duo, if it helps."  Duo
did, and Hilde comforted him.

"Do you think I'll ever get over him, Hilde?" Duo asked
the German girl.  She nodded.

"Hai, Duo...you will...one day..."

<Ever since you've been gone
The lights go out the same
The only difference is
You call another name
To your Love
To your lover now
To your love
The lover after me...>
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